I am a just regular 16 year old guy from the Philippines, trying to make a dent in this world.
Posted on Wednesday, 24 October
Since we were born, God had a purpose for us
In fulfilling this purpose, we should not fuss
In life we go on wondering what this is
To God we must go for the knowledge is His
I was asked what would be my contribution
I knew one day that I’d need to take action
I decided to go to God, this wasn’t odd
I asked if He could tell me, what I got was a nod
He patiently led me through His precious word
Going through the things I have already heard
Wondering what He wanted to tell His child
I needed to think straight and not think so wild
After a while, it was very obvious
Now, how could I have been so oblivious?
My contribution is supposed to be a solution
It was for the darkness to end up in dissolution
That darkness is not the one seen in the world
But in the people who do not hear the word
The good news, God’s gift of salvation through Jesus
They need to hear about what saved some of us
That would be my contribution to this Earth
But ultimately, it’s a gift to my hearth
Home which is heaven, God’s eternal kingdom
I must bring people to eternal freedom
Nonetheless, this is not my mission alone
The mission that is to make Jesus Christ known
But for every believer this was meant
Now in this fallen world, let us make a dent
Posted on Monday, 16 July
Posted on Monday, 16 July
Before you start reading this long essay. I would just like to give a brief background. I made this essay as a requirement for one of the colleges I’m applying for, Ateneo De Manila University. It was supposed to be about an experience or achievement that has helped define you as a person. After writing, I just realized that I could use this essay to encourage people who are down and are going through tough times. Forgive the length, but I think one can learn quite a lot from this.
When someone wants to tell us something, they speak in a normal tone but when we don’t listen to them, they start shouting. Same is true with God. He usually talks to us through his word then through people. Though, we may ignore his still small voice thus He lets bad things happen as His method of shouting.
Pride is one of, if not, my biggest struggle in life. It is something that I have struggled with for most of my 15 year life. Going through school, I always thought I was intellectually superior compared to my classmates. When around other people, I think that I am more talented compared to them. Part of that pride is the desire to always be noticed and praised by other people. This has caused me to be arrogant. Also, I did not to listen to other’s opinions and criticisms and I always aimed to always seek praise and glory for myself.
Though, I learned that in life pride is a very horrible thing to possess. We bring glory to ourselves instead of giving them to God. It only makes us use our strength in vain. I quote from the bible, “I will break down your stubborn pride and…your strength will be spent in vain, because your soil will not yield its crops, nor will the trees of the land yield their fruit.” This comes from the book of Leviticus. It was God who was talking in this verse. This verse is very relevant to my experience with pride as God shouted at me.
This all started during the fourth quarter in my third year of high school. The major requirement for English that year was to make a film. Upon hearing this, I immediately suggested making a film, saying that it would be easier and all the advantages but I had a hidden objective. I was a really good video editor so I figured that if we made film, I would have to edit it and thus receiving a lot of praise.
We finally decided to do our interpretation of “It’s a Wonderful Life”. A few weeks passed and I was still doing well but when it was time to pass the first half of the film, I became really stressed. I didn’t even sleep the day before the submission since I was editing the film. I even needed the help of my friends and that really hurt my pride since I thought I could do it on my own. Though there was a bit of a minor set-back, I was still fine.
Then a few more weeks passed and it was time to submit the entire film. There were problems rendering the film and I couldn’t meet the deadline. I was given an extension several times but it still wouldn’t finish rendering. By the time I had my last extension, it would have already been 24 hours or longer since it started to render. After the struggle, my dad and my brother helped me with the rendering of the video. We tried everything but nothing worked. Then my dad stopped me and told me to do something. He told me to pray to God and ask for forgiveness for what I’ve done wrong that could have cause this.
I realized that it was my pride and that I have been using my strength in vain. Had I not chosen to edit the film, I wouldn’t have to experience any of these problems. I prayed and asked for forgiveness. Then I decided to surrender it all to God and let Him take care of it. I restarted the rendering and amazingly, it finished in 30 minutes. I was very shocked. What took more than 24 hour to not finish, only took 30 minutes. It was unbelievable. I wanted to shout but everyone else in my family was already sleeping.
I fell down pretty hard there. I went away from God thinking I could do everything on my own but it’s wonderful how he carries us through the storms of our lives. We shun him but he’s always there. I have sinned greatly against him but he still ran after me and corrected me. Prior to this, he has already been warning me of my pride but I didn’t listen so, he had to shout. He never left me; he was always there for me. I now know what I should never be discouraged because he watches over his children and will always run after those who have gone astray.
A funny thing about this experience is that God even used a song to tell me that he really cares for me. As a member of the singing guild, I had to sing a song with a group of people in the High School Fellowship Night. The song we picked was Fix You by Coldplay. The lyrics really described what happened to me.
When you try your best, but you don’t succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can’t sleep
Stuck in reverse
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
All the things in first verse described what happened to me and all God was doing all along was fixing me. I tried everything when editing the video but, on my own strength, I did not succeed. I got the praise at first but I didn’t get the rest that I needed. I wanted to sleep when editing the movie but I couldn’t since a lot of grades were on the line. I only went backwards rather that moving forward when I did this for my own glory. Then came the chorus. Through all this, God just wanted me home and back to him and in the end he fixed me. He was cleansing me of my pride. He wanted me to be a better person. He wanted me to go back to him.
I learned two very important things in this time of my life. First, pride never brings you anyway but it just puts you on reverse. It brings you to a position worse than before. It also brings a lot of disgrace. Second, God will never leave you even if you sin against him. We may stumble but he’s there to pick us up.
This experience made me the person I am today. I now seek to bring glory to the almighty God rather than myself. I now think of others higher than me. Thank you for reading and to God be all the glory.